why do i think the things i do?

It's frustrating being a person who seems only able to generate abstract thought and abstract art. Day by day it gets harder for me to be specific. I'm smart, but I'm also neurologically ill in multiple ways. Concentration gives me migraines and I like to avoid those when I can. I also focus on big things because the pandemic changed so much of our lives. We have faced huge problems that are just smaller instances of eternal struggles: life, death, illness, society, global identity. I know it's been on everybody's mind, not just mine, but it seems like my own life has been dragged through so many big problems that I can't help but focus on them. ​