I will not fall into the trap of dehumanization. There are only human monsters and they are not invincible. Society's evil is entirely human. Nazism is a human problem.  Zionism is a human problem. Cats are not inventing genocidal dictatorships and rounding up people into cages. That violence is solely human.

Many in our society think violence is a fun game to play and I think that's sick, but I don't think they're less than human for having those thoughts. It's just that humanity sucks. This is what we're capable of because it's what we're doing right now. 

We need to defend ourselves, heal ourselves, grow ourselves.

White supremacy has guns and men which is why we are afraid. What blocks a gun? Sometimes a camera but that is not enough defense. Elaine Brown, former Black Panther Party leader, said that the power white people feared about Black people/the armed Black Panther Party wasn't the gun, but the ideology behind the gun. So perhaps words and philosophy and morality and character and conviction can be a defense/deterrent to white power exerting itself. I am scared though, of the physical damage white supremacy's capable of. 

**Updating the date to reflect when new messages are sent!

October 2024: In April and May I tried to engage with some prominent Columbia Zionists because I was getting sick of their shit. I've never been one to ignore a problem and arguably attack them before I have a set game plan, and I admit I was caught off guard by them trying to make TikToks when I approached them for a conversation outside the encampment. But after my letter, I've had months to interact with them and really interrogate why they believe what they believe. One girl said she'd respond, but ghosted me the whole summer into September when she suddenly deactivated her Instagram account. Another girl has filters for non-verified profiles, so I'm not sure she's ever seen my messages. But I had a mildly productive two and a half hour conversation with the male Columbia Zionist who co-wrote that "In Our Name" letter... after our conversation though, he went back to ignoring me/regurgitating Zionist propaganda like a perfect drone. They can't explain themselves and they don't care.

I admit, I was delusional like this once in my long-term high school relationship. I had a boyfriend who gaslit me and I was already a traumatized person, so it was easy to take advantage of me. It must be very sad and depersonalizing to be so indoctrinated into Zionist beliefs. Do they know who they are without this identity? Do they have any friends or a community outside of Zionism? I imagine inner turmoil waiting to be released, and sadly I do wish they go through major depressive episodes/existential crises and contemplate what it means to be human. I don't think they've thought about that enough and I think that's on purpose, a manipulation of younger generations to serve old and bitter purposes. I have had two major depressive episodes (lasting months) and went through existential crises before I had the words to understand what that was. I know every single person in Gaza, every person from newborn babies to 100-year old great-grandparents, is going through their own turmoil right now. It is not only a battle for their land but a battle for their minds, and echoing a sentiment I saw most recently espoused by Harvard's SJP: bring the war home. Bring the devastation back to the people who cause it, who support it, who profit and derive pleasure and privilege from it. That's what I mean when I say I hope Zionists suffer mentally, because the whole fucking issue is that too many are privileged while too many are dying. Because you lack the empathy to feel the pain of others, I'm hoping that personal pain comes to you.

I've been DMing the male Columbia Zionist sporadically when I need to vent about how awful Zionism is. I'll always criticize them to their face because they're the ones that deserve it, imo lowkey more than liberals who keep co-opting movements and making weird non-progress. I feel 99% certain that I'd fight a Trump supporter before fighting a Kamala supporter. I'm fighting both (a Trumpie and a Zionist) when I hit him with my words and it's satisfying as hell. I'm glad to have grown more in organizing spaces and develop a deeper understanding of propaganda and media, because it truly is a controller of society & people.

I hear Zionists incessantly send their friends/people they know all their propaganda and I thought I'd do the opposite/the same thing? with Zionists and pro-Palestinian propaganda. Over the months I've sent some videos and images of the destruction I see in Palestine because I don't think Zionists see that on their feed. It truly costs nothing for me to DM someone so why wouldn't I do it? I've already been yelling into the void here for 3 years, so I might as well rage at a Zionist hellbent on ignoring me anyways.

Thanks for reading besties ;)