On SubstackFirst published on Substack and made a small instagram post to reach the masses, but it's not feeling like the method I want to convey this information in. I have huge posterboards or whiteboards I'd want to put together, if I had the space and resources I'd show the world how to understand things differently but I am still bound to typing, forget hand-drawing & don't write in notebooks often enough. My therapist told me to try doing something for myself so I think I'll take out the poster board and start plotting the story of Jeffrey Epstein, mapping his existence because it's not fully clear to everyone the way he worked. Instagram slides
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How can you shame someone that's proud of everything they do? How do they not feel shame? Is it something not every human has the ability to feel?
Rewatching videos on my instagram highlights, I momentarily put myself in the aggressor's shoes. If I was the aggressor watching this, would I like what I was seeing? Would I be sad? Would I feel connected to myself in the video or be depersonalized? Putting myself in the perspectives of Zionists was not a natural empathetic action. I thought of it like I was literally removing my brain from my head and placing it into another body. I've heard the term "radical empathy" before (most recently in You season 5, when Beck is describing Bronte's writings) and it kinda feels like that. It also has changed from a mechanized process of removal to a shift where I'm on the same battleground, but on the other side. There are sides in our society and I don't mind outlining mine. Anti-capitalism, anti-imperialism, anti-white supremacy (which I feel encompasses a lot of discrimination like racism, sexism, ableism, queerphobia, and so much more). I consider my side to be pro-love and pro-humanity. I feel shame when I am not as loving as I could've been. Why don't others feel the same? I will not fall into the trap of dehumanization. There are only human monsters and they are not invincible. Society's evil is entirely human. Nazism is a human problem. Zionism is a human problem. Cats are not inventing genocidal dictatorships and rounding up people into cages. That violence is solely human.
Many in our society think violence is a fun game to play and I think that's sick, but I don't think they're less than human for having those thoughts. It's just that humanity sucks. This is what we're capable of because it's what we're doing right now. Studying history helps originality. Mimicking it does not. Movements are stagnant when you don't know how to progress. History shows us different methods we can use, but we HAVE TO make our own. We all have the same enemy. Class war is the real war and the rich are our real enemy. Who are the deep state/ultra conservatives controllers of government? People like Trump and Musk are in the spotlight, but there's also secret executives like Gerri Kellman and Tom Wambsgans and Stan Edgar.
CW: violence, graphic content. I'm starting with fantasy-- speculative television. Homelander from The Boys is a white, blond hair, blue eyed man whose uniform is the American flag. He is emblematic of the good old standard American ways and people. He is an internationally known figure. Television shows in their universe cater to him and he dominates social media. He has laser eyes, flies, super strength, and invulnerability. The Supe body seems to be more durable and have higher strength levels than humans, but Homelander remains exceptionally strong. Homelander is the biological offspring of Soldier Boy, the super strong American WWII war hero in their world. Below is Soldier Boy killing one of his former teammates who sold him to the Russian government so they could perform experiments on him, including age suspension. Ryan, Homelander's son, appears to have the same exact powers as his father. Here he is lasering Soldier Boy (his grandfather) who's trying to kill Homelander (his father). The generational abuse white male families go through across multiple genres of TV (The Boys, Succession, Shameless, Brooklyn 99) makes me think that it is a VERY real, personal problem that affects all of society because they have power-- personal influence. Their abuse is the mold of our society. From Gen V, another show set in the world of The Boys, we see Golden Boy (Luke Riordan) and his brother Sam Riordan have similar powers.
I see Omni-Man, Conquest, and Captain America as similarly powered people, and the inspiration for all of these characters is Superman. (A breakdown of their similarities in case you don't get it: 1) Omni-Man 2) Sam 3) Homelander 4) Captain America 5) Soldier Boy 6) Luke 7) Ryan 8) Superman) Super punching: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 8 Can fly: 1, 3, 6, 8 Plasma powers: 3, 5, 6, 7, 8 Durable: all of the above Violent: all of the above Famous and beloved in their world: all of the above (2 at the end of the show) Clearly mentally ill: 2, 3, 5 Traumatized: all of the above White and male: all of the above The idea shared between all these characters is that white men are stronger than others: strong as in they can punch really hard and rip people apart. They are capable of so much damage when not acting carefully. One moment of this is when Ryan throws and accidentally kills Koy (The Boys S4 Ep 4). He doesn't mean to at all, but he splatters him on the wall as if throwing pancake batter. When these "heroes" act, they are extremely destructive while often remaining unaffected by their enemies. It's a specific vision of power that is imbued into one's very essence. That is the most powerful type of person to be in these worlds. For me, media reveals the psychology of the human mind. I often watch dramas where characters have personal traumas and mental illness and we get to see how their lives are a product of that past. I think about myself in the same ways so I can empathize with these traumatized characters that are horrible people partly because of their trauma. They were all abused and that's not coincidence, that's pattern and possibly the cause of the abuse they inflict. Homelander was a Vought experiment, grown in a lab and purposefully, psychologically bred to be so desperate for love he'd stay trapped in a cage, surrounded by people who hated and feared and abused him, then he became a public marketable figure known across the whole world. He was bred to be a weapon, a celebrity, and was denied humanity... it's absolutely not a shock for him to be the Supe supremacist. The Soldier Boy we know was tortured by Russians for at least 30 years and suffered from the same lies about himself. He thought his team loved him, his girlfriend loved him, but they all hated him and sold him out and he's incapable of understanding why yet still in pain. He was extremely traumatized from the scientific experiments of the Russians which only made him stronger & more capable of damage. That's exactly what abuse does to you in real life-- makes your capacity to abuse others that much greater. Sam and Luke have different upbringings because their parents gave them Compound V for money, rather than being created & raised by Vought, but the society of The Boys' world puts these boys into the same positions. Luke ends up on a track similar to Homelander and Soldier Boy: publicly loved, set to join The Seven, and top-ranked at Godolkin University. Meanwhile, Sam is kept underground to be experimented on and suffers from schizophrenia, like Homelander with his multiple personality disorder and Soldier Boy with his PTSD. We find out that Luke was experimented on by Godolkin and repeatedly memory-wiped by Cate, his girlfriend who was also cheating on him with his best friend Andre. And after Homelander "fixes" the Woods escape, Sam gets a chance to live out the celebrity life his brother was supposed to have with Cate, even starring in a Vought romcom together. Now when I think about overly powerful male characters, my mind goes to Logan Roy, because I am succession-pilled and I think he is quite similar to these other white males. First, he's powerfully abusive. He knocks out Roman's tooth, strikes Iverson in the face, and yells at everyone around him. In their world, Logan is his own planet with his own orbit-- everything revolves around him. There are galas thrown in his honor, all his media only produces what he wants to watch, and he's made the world bend to his will literally picking American presidents. The Succession world is our world so nobody has fantasy superpowers but Logan Roy has matchless power: world-changing influence and that quality of being uniquely chosen. Early on they describe Logan as a kind of "magical" figure that keeps the company together by his business genius. Without him Waystar is nothing (as well as his children, but that's an essay for my other blog lol). He sees himself, and a lot of the world sees him, as a titan among men. It's the same domination that Homelander expresses in his birthday speech. "I'm stronger. I'm smarter. I'm better. I am better... You should be thanking Christ that I am who and what I am, because you need me. You need me to save you. I am the only one who possibly can. I'm the real hero." I highly recommend watching the speech because it is chilling.
I find myself easily believing white men are villains because of the media I've watched growing up. At some point, Americans realized colonization and slavery is a bad look and started condemning it. They realized they were the enemies and started portraying them in media as such. Villainization of Black and Indigenous people is prominent but I've learned to recognize and dismiss that bias as bogus. White people remain convincing villains because they must be monsters for an abusive society to single them out as fucked up. The prominence of them makes me think that we should be taking child abuse (and adult abuse) much more seriously than we do. Those intimate personal problems directly create destruction, whether manifested through magical powers or evidenced by its toll on the world.
The white supremacist personality is psychologically scarred. It's an abuser created from abuse and it kills us. Our society is emotionally unintelligent in favor of rationality and logic, claiming some sort of masculine advantage that makes them better fit to control everything, but the male creators of this society failed to see that it is logical and rational to be emotional. In my opinion, it's a dumb fucking mistake. We are creatures with emotions for a reason. Ignoring them when creating a human society is guaranteed to not care for humans properly, including yourself. Men are highly emotional beings (see my above videos) and haven't built a society capable of processing that emotion. They damage everything over and over again, obliterating when they don't have to be. So a supreme power like the West is disastrously destructive, it's a child that was never taught to love. Uneducated, angry, afraid, violent, psychologically damaged, physically abused, irresponsible, dishonest, insecure, selfish, hard, and judgmental. It's human, but it is not all we are. We are more and much better than white supremacy and we need to start living like it. I am left questioning if I or anyone could teach the white supremacist personality to not be themselves, or if that's a process they need to come about on their own. How do you deal with a power like Homelander? How did you argue in a room with Logan Roy when he was alive? The answer is you don't, you play yesman until you're mildly safe and try your best not to die. Try to kill him if you dare but the punishment is fierce if you get caught. That's all we seem to have so far... but I believe enough in science and love to think that we can save ourselves, and kill white power. My education was able to give me the hits of Western society: philosophy, science, culture, art, and supposedly the best of all of them. It depresses me. This shouldn’t be excellence, because the only thing excellent about it was its ability to be troublesome for my learning. At a school so egocentric, the worst experience is the true measure of its educational capability. I wish Columbia University wasn’t as influential as it is but for 270 years it has successfully put itself in the spotlight as a beacon of Western thought and producers of exemplary humanity. But this excellence is artificial. Getting a supreme Western education like attending Columbia is supposed to be a pipeline to excellence. It’s one they’ve hijacked though, to direct the flow of intellect and potential towards themselves and starve the rest while claiming the rest naturally have less.
It’s artificial excellence— manufactured, appropriated, stolen, taken, exaggerated. It looks so real to us because we’re at a point in time where all the generations that exist are people completely of the West. Even though we have knowledge of colonial ancestors our society, with the multiple technological revolutions and rapid ages of invention, has unique aspects distinct to the West. So we think no humanity could’ve done this before because they haven’t, which makes the West better than the rest. The truth is, progress would’ve always happened because time doesn’t stop. Revolution and change is inevitable. What was completely avoidable was the damage humanity did while the times changed. So the perceived excellence of the West is a shiny illusion. What happened in excess was violence and for a long time it outwardly praised itself for its savagery. I’ll speak for modern American history, that the 60s and 70s was a period of great social change where people finally had to reckon with the lies of civility they told themselves. Within America the definition of a human being genuinely expanded. I think there’s a time like that coming again, because the destruction in the world is so enormous and humanity’s rage is roiling. Real human being, love and acceptance, positive collaboration is where we’re going. It’s certainly where I plan on going. I'm speaking to the white supremacy of the elite, academia heads who think they know more about the world than anybody else. The ones that believe their “education” makes them smarter and intrinsically better than other people... the ones that believe they possess some unreplicable and immaculate quality. Your Western supremacy Columbia shot me up with was traumatic and in the end, not even the pinnacle of education it claims to be.
In my Global Histories of Science class, I learned that the students of Edward Tylor-- the founder of cultural anthropology-- shifted the field from solely being based in secondary sources to "objective" primary source accounts through "participant observation". But we understand now, with universal proof of quantum mechanics, that observing affects the outcome of the experiment. The narratives of Western history that we base our lives on were improperly measured. The colonizer simultaneously creates and experiences a type of local cultural shift that develops in relation to the presence. You’re in the picture you’re taking. It’s a selfie, not a landscape photograph. As the observer you framed the shot, chose what to focus on, what stories to tell, you created your own interpretation of reality and presented it to us as the most perfect truth without removing any of your own distorted opinions. You've been hyping up a selfie with a lot of fucking flaws, and I can see how that would offend you to the point of complete indignation and rage. That emotion doesn't change the fact that your original creation is Fucked the Fuck Up. Those of us not in the photograph (because you pushed us out, poisoned our bodies and buried them) try to make edits to your picture when we can. I must admit, you put up a terrifying fight. |
