shame

How can you shame someone that's proud of everything they do? How do they not feel shame? Is it something not every human has the ability to feel? 

Rewatching videos on my instagram highlights, I momentarily put myself in the aggressor's shoes. If I was the aggressor watching this, would I like what I was seeing? Would I be  sad? Would I feel connected to myself in the video or be depersonalized? 

Putting myself in the perspectives of Zionists was not a natural empathetic action. I thought of it like I was literally removing my brain from my head and placing it into another body. I've heard the term "radical empathy" before (most recently in You season 5, when Beck is describing Bronte's writings) and it kinda feels like that. It also has changed from a mechanized process of removal to a shift where I'm on the same battleground, but on the other side. There are sides in our society and I don't mind outlining mine. Anti-capitalism, anti-imperialism, anti-white supremacy (which I feel encompasses a lot of discrimination like racism, sexism, ableism, queerphobia, and so much more). I consider my side to be pro-love and pro-humanity. 

I feel shame when I am not as loving as I could've been. Why don't others feel the same?